It has been a long while since the last day I was adventurously insane.
I have been saying no to all unfamiliar challenging activities
Where is the little girl who stole flowers from the garden belonged to a neighbour?
Where is the little girl who stayed on the swing under the tree all alone for hours?
Where is the little girl who ran out of school and bought refreshing drink?
Where is the little girl who took the courage to cross the road for the first time?
Where is the little girl who played in rain?
Is she still in me?
I have been choosing the safer way, the obedient way…
Doing just what I am asked to do
I follow rules and rules
I have some things in my mind
they are in planning status
I have decided to do them
to retrieve back my insanity
coz I realize though I am alive
I feel like a dead body
life should be a roller-coastal
I ask myself, ‘what do I want to do?’
I shall let go of the obedient-girl image in your eyes
no more asking for approval
and be an outstanding girl
who is more me
and will be loved more