My anxiety hadn’t risen when I just boarded a taxi with Bel. While getting out of the cab, my carelessness of striking the cab window with my mini umbrella told me that I was nervous. Wondering if I should get a washroom since the time was already 11am. Bel asked whether I needed one. Then, I got one.
We reached. In a room, everyone who saw me shook hand with me. Face blindness struck me for that moment. Busy searching my mobile phone in my bulky Material handbag. Almost everyone stared at me. I said that I wanted to set my phone to silent mode.
After a presentation by a doctor ,I glanced around. People looked at me. The doctor sent a signal through his body language to me. It was time to start. I realised it and proceeded with my first question. Busy taking down notes. Trying hard to get used to his UK accent.
A guy next to me suddenly asked a question. I thought I was dominating the interview because I had assumed that I was the only interviewer. Thus, I ceased asking. People directed their eyeballs at me. Suddenly, I realised that they were waiting for my next question.
As usual, my voice was soft, slow. I found myself going backward of my sentence. Messy note taking. Puzzled at medical terms.
Done with my questions, I looked around with a hope of someone would tell me what to do next.
Heard some compliments. Felt relieved that my research added some credits. He expressed his intention to read my writeup. I silently prayed that the interview has been recorded well so that it can assist me if the need to write arises.
While leaving, I found out that my cup of coffee was still full. Turned around. All had almost finished their coffee.
Found out that I took away a paper holder that was not my property. I guess this was because of my post interview anxiety.
I need to improve my note taking and listening skills. Any suggestions?